Hey Guys!
Sorry I’m a day late, life has been hectic & it’s been hard to snap out of vacation mode after having the hubs off all last week! Speaking of the last week, what a doozy! There has been SO much happening in the United States and all over the globe. I won’t get into all the specifics but it certainly holds heavy spaces for me.
My anxiety is no secret. And the cool part (insert eye roll) is that it’s general anxiety so everything and nothing is a trigger. The unknown and lack of control is my biggest issue and with the news last week, it’s literally all unknown (to us general folk, anyway). I’ve been trying to focus on different techniques to stay calm and rational with it all. Last week, I failed miserably. I went off my diet -- which, I know for a fact directly effects my mood -- and had entirely too much to drink. Vacay, am I right!? I also barely exercised. I just abandoned the very things I know improve my well-being on a day to day basis. Now some of you might be saying, okay but live a little! Here’s where I’ll stop you. I lived in almost a constant state of anxiety for the entire week. I couldn’t shake it and I couldn’t pull myself out of it. That’s not living. Survival mode is not living.
This week, I’m getting back onto my routine and diet which I know will have a profoundly positive effect on my mood and well-being. Last night while texting with a friend, I realized I was beating myself up over the fact that I “fell off the wagon” and she told me to push myself, not beat myself up over it. Thank you, LB <3. It’s important to have people in your life who are supporting and pushing you in the direction you want to be moving in.
This all ties in to being mindful. This last week, mindfulness went out the window. I wasn’t making decisions that lead me toward my ultimate goal which is to be happy, calm, and healthy. I sabotaged that at every turn. This week, I will turn back to making mindful decisions that take me back to the path I want to follow and I encourage you to do the same. It’s okay to fall off track from time to to time but the important part is that you’re able to acknowledge and admit it, then hop right back on and keep pushing forward. Honesty is often a trait we look for in other people but we rarely are honest with ourselves.
Keep trying, stay mindful
-A